Day 11 - A deceased person you wish you could talk to

Dear Aunty Corrie

I miss you so much, you and Oupa both, my dear precious grandparents, I miss you.
Aunts Corrie, I was 17 when you left us and I still feel guilty for being a selfish, lazy teenager for not going with you on that last doctors visit. When that call came in just after midnight, i sat up in bed in the dark and i knew you were gone. I am so sorry, i hope you can forgive me,as I am still struggling to forgive myself. I have so many fond memories of the time we spent together it's hard to only mention a few. One favorite story you always told was of me as 4/5 year old sitting on the kitchen table holding court and ruling over the other,much older kids - you called me a 'Little Madam' and laughed so much. I still try very hard to be the lady and 'little madam' you wanted me to be; always remembering my manners and to cross my legs at my ankles. You are with me everyday, you are part of me, I miss you.
Oupa, what I wouldn't give for a cuddle with you, to sit and listen to your stories of long before my time and to hear stories of me as a little girl. Oh, how I wish could remember those stories now!!! What I wouldn't give to hear you sing again. To see you face light up again, that cheeky grin of yours.
I miss you both so much,
Yours,
M

P.S. I do try to keep my hair out of my face and not hide behind it, I havent forgotten!